Semi-Normal

Today was the first day since starting the anti-depressants that I haven't had "medicine head." Previous days I've felt like my head was all cottony and unclear. It might also have had something do to with the lack of sleep, or a combination of the two. Last night I only woke up once. I don't remember when I fell back asleep, but it must not have been too long since I don't recall being too troubled by it.

Spent the day in Seattle with Caleb. Went to the Science Fiction Museum, the Experience Music Project, and had lunch on the waterfront. A lot of walking, but that's a good thing. As much as I want Nathan back, I'm starting to wonder if the separation really is a good thing. It always felt like I was forcing him to go out with us when he'd rather stay home and sit at his computer. Maybe it could have worked out between us if I was more independent and didn't require he accompany us, but I always wanted it to be a family outing, or when Caleb wasn't here, a boyfriend/girlfriend thing. There was a time when he would hold my hand out in public and make things seem romantic. Long time ago I guess.

Still, I'm lonely without him. I want to talk to him and see how he is, but I need to be able to hold out and have no contact with him until work on Monday. Going to see some friends tonight, so that should eat up some time so's I don't call him. I'm sure he's enjoying not seeing or hearing from me.

Still losing weight. Still don't have too much appetite. At least I'm able to fit in my old clothes.