PMS?

It doesn't take much to upset me. A simple question. An undesired response. And once that happens, I have to really push myself to keep from saying/doing something I will regret. It is especially critical now since my sweetie still has his bags packed, just waiting for me to start throwing things (insults, books, etc.) so that he can leave and not look back.

I think I curbed the urge, though. But it was hard. Seriously, I broke into a sweat just sitting there, holding my tongue when what I really wanted to do was say something cutting and mean. I'm still feeling a little shaky from the effort, but I think I'm over it now. I'm telling you, it was difficult. Who knew being a fair and decent person could be this hard? I mean really, it wasn't even that we were arguing over anything. I was asking questions about a mutual friend and was starting to feel "out of the loop" because there were several incidents that I apparently was clueless to. Nothing major or of any note. Just the fact that I didn't KNOW upset me. See what I mean? Ridiculous.

And still, it was so difficult for me to let that go and not let it get to me that I broke into a sweat over it. But I'm better now. Hopefully. The problem is that the next few days are critical. The PMS/crazy cycle continues, and each day can potentially undo any of the work I've done to try and not be my father. It doesn't help that my hair is falling out either.

I need help.