So Far So Good

But it's early, and there's plenty of time for things to go wrong. I think I should do more things to occupy my time just so I don't spend it waiting for things to turn bad. Now that the weather isn't quite so conducive to outdoor activities, I have to spend it inside doing more sedentery things. Not that it's such a bad thing, I mean, reading is good for me, and writing bad stories can be amusing, but physical activity is what I need. I mowed the lawn earlier this week, thank goodness since it's been raining and the wind has kicked up. I'm sure the trick or treaters will appreciate the shorter grass, although who knows how fast it will grow from now until Halloween with all the rain we've been getting.

Going to plant some bulbs for spring. Went to Lowe's yesterday during the windstorm which was probably stupid, but I felt that I could either sit around at home and wait for a tree to fall on the house, or I could drive around and dodge them on the road. I suppose the latter was the worse of the two choices. I had to get gas anyway, so it was necessary to go out. One thing I learned from last years snow/wind storms was to be sure to keep the tank filled...and emergency food on hand that doesn't need to be cooked, which I forgot to get when I went out grocery shopping this week.

Last night I spoke to two of my sisters and my mom. One sister doesn't like the idea of me going on antidepressants. Was trying to talk me out of them. Says she controls her own depression by keeping herself busy, but part of my problem is that sometimes I just don't see the point in even getting up in the morning, or else, I'm just too sad to want to do anything. The other one thinks I should do what I think is right. She doesn't seem so averse to the idea of antidepressents, probably because she's going through a chemical dependency program right now. Mom is also concerned about the medications, even though she's been on her own regimen of medications for a few years now. Of course, now she tells me she's healed after going to a "healing mass" at her church. She's stopped taking her medications because she says she doesn't need it. Kind of scary if you ask me. But she says she keeps them on hand in case a panic attack does come on, so I don't think even she's all that confident that she's been fully healed.

Going to see Nightmare Before Christmas in 3d tonight. Then a seafood dinner. I'm really excited.

Feeling normal today.